have you ever hated someone so much? you try to forget and you try to forgive.. but it doesnt seems to be working? now every little thing about that person is not right.. and you keep on criticising.. in every little thing.. and you have a tiny little bit of hope that your life is going to be better than his/hers.. you feel frustrated when he/she sort of beats you on something.. maybe he/she got betther grades.. better job.. and you sometimes wish he/she is not happy..

well i do.. something happened looooong time ago and I blamed him (probably its not totally his fault.. maybe he was so poyo and I was so stupid not to realize that.. but since I hate him.. I put the blame on him.. hihi).. we never talked about the whole situation.. about how I felt.. there are still things that I dont understand.. why he did that.. i think thats the reason it gets so bad.. i hate him even more.. urghhh.. thought i'm over it but obviously i'm not.. i hate the way i hate this person.. all i need is a closure.. but i think its too late now.. oh well..

moral of the story.. let it out.. discuss and have a chat.. everytime when you 'rasa tak best'.. things like this might happen.. u might hate someone so much then you will hate yourself even more..